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Saturday, November 26, 2005

Whenever there's an argument, parents will be finding the truth before they scold or even tell u off. But mine's didn't. I've had enugh ever since I'm born in this world. They have NEVER do tt. Not even once. Does it means tt being the elder one mus be the person tt parents have to aim for all the times? But I've never seen my elder sis getting scolded b'cos of me or when I've done anything wrong. I dun mean I'm a veri good kid but at least I dun go abt sabo-ing my siblings when I'm being scolded or when I did smt wrong. Now, the problem doesn't lies on me but on my parents and my younger sis. She was there throwing my things and flicking them all abt. I told her off b'cos they were MY things. And she shldnt do them and she's super noisy. Well, b'cos of telling her off (which to my parents when I did it was wrong but not to my younger sis) I was scolded by them. Then my dad jus told me to shut up before he'll come and slap me. To me, I'm thinking come la. It was not the first time he had ever beat me up. Not onli my mum didn't side me, she blame me each time when Kristen was quarreling wif me over the computer and now she scold me for not letting her since she's the "youngest" in the family. Is like wad the hell lor..? is all tis fair? In the past, when my elder sister was at home, none of this will even happen. She will jus tell them how she feel. Can my parents even calm dwn and even try to talk to me abt all this nicely in a nicer way instead of blaming either party? i dun care whether they scold me or wad so ever cos I know, they wan the best out of me but now, they are taking the thought of "elder must let the younger" = "elder mus be scolded even though the younger is wrong.. b'cos they are young ma.." I can no longer see the "old" parent I've had. I really feel bad abt this matter. But I shldnt shout back at them rite..? so I decided to pen dwn my thoughts. i'm crying.. like i've never did when i'm blogging.. =( =( =( =( =( =( =( =( =( =( =( =( =( =( =( =( =( =( i dun nid anyone of your's comment. I dun nid seriously. Perhaps jus my besties.. haiya. dun bother la my dears. but I wan YOU to be there. I wan u to talk to me. I wan u to listen to me. I jus nid ur presence. I wan to sit at the same position wif u the other day.. the day when both of us jus keep silent. When I could hear your breathing dwn my neck.